influential

i know i'm heavily influenced by my environment--books, people, so why not the internet? this explains a lot--it doesn't excuse my behaviour, but it explains it.

i guess i've known this for a long time. for example, around 20, i knew i was well suited for projects. in a way, i'm searching for the ultimate project. i guess too i'm searching for the ultimate children, the ultimate partner, the ultimate self.

but what if in searching for the ultimate, i expect too much--i expect too much from my kids, from my partner, from my self? will i be forever not satisfied, forever searching? can't i ever just chill?

here's 350:

'Of course, by joining this movement, you've become a part of this story as well. Because just as the amount of CO2 steadily ticks upwards at Mauna Loa, so too does the number of people joining this "people powered movement." Now that's a "ppm" we can get excited about.'

source: http://www.350.org/en/about/blogs/story-ppm